I have the impression that sometimes,
People from the outside see that everything goes great for me
It’s easy to say; It’s so easy for you
Because if you’re outstanding, they don’t see all the effort
All the hard work you put in
And what it costs to be at this point
Because you made it look seamless
Or effortless
But it may take a lot of work and resources
Invisible work
I get frustrated with this
Because it looks so good because it’s supposed to
But it’s because I worked hard
The word recognition brings up a schizophrenic feeling for me
On the one hand, I’m not doing things just for recognition
I don’t want an award or money
I do it because I like it
On the other hand,
It would be kind of oblivious to say
That I’m immune to recognition
Of course, it’s a nice feeling
It also makes me frustrated when I put in the work
And somebody higher up the food chain claims your work for theirs
At this moment, you know that recognition matters
Because it seems fair